Tuesday, June 10, 2008

First Post

I could feel the tension in the room when Jaime said we had to put our writing online. A tension that comes from fear. I felt so good though after my first post...not so much like I had written something great, but like I had conquered a fear. The fear of being read.

I wonder if each new audience is a new fear. I will write for my students, and my dad, but each new person I let into my world of writing brings new fears and highlights new insecurities.

Today went by quickly and I have spent the afternoon practicing my presentation in my mind. Other fears I have to confront are being highlighted, I guess. I've been mumbling to myself as I cleaned the house, revamping my presentation to try to make it relevant and comprehensible, not to mention entertaining. We have such a participatory, supportive group. That makes me feel better. I want my classroom to be like the writing project (I hope it is): a place where you feel like everyone is willing you to succeed and where differences are celebrated.

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